What dies inside while still Alive

Medically I am alive ,I am dead inside

I feel no taste , food is just food now

I feel no warmth, its all cold inside

I feel no joy, sorrow is my home tonight

I fake smile, tears welled up in my eyes

After dying I am good at faking happiness.

I am stronger , I can laugh at my son's joke, while crying inside.

I am more adjustable now, I have no food preferences.

I am more spiritual now, I welcome death

I am more emotionally stable now, I only feel anger

I am more living now, I can live while being dead inside.

Life has changed me inside out, I am not going to change any more

My whole identity is changed, it cannot be reversed anymore.

Life is all about revenge and payback is bitter

I have lost it all, now its your turn.