Love you Mummy

I don't think I have said it enough, it never can be said enough- I love you Mummy. I always have and always will. I have felt your presence too and I am so thankful for that, but I am greedy for more. I miss the physical presence so much. I have so many regrets...there is no end to the list. My too much focus on controlling the diet, my too much focus on making you independent( why and why at this age I have no idea), My too much fear which came in between enjoying the time. I ruined every perfect moment. I miss you so much . You endured it all, still loved me and tried to make me understand the process of letting go, which I failed to understand then and I fail to understand it now.

I wish you can communicate with me daily even now and make your presence feel. That is the straw of hope on which I am hanging on to.

Love you and miss you more than you would ever know.